ouch...

ouch... goddamnit!
quit looking at me
smokey swirls rise to
veil your look
the air inside just perfect
cold and stale
smell of nicotine
fingers pale and yellow

in-drawn breath and
i feel the burn
just for a moment
ease the pain
the air outside sickening
hot and humid
the smell of human
honor gone morals fade

i sit here alone
day after day
pain biting as teeth
of wild pig
I watch them go by
automatons
working for the man
never feeling reality

"I live life to the fullest"
what a load of shit
if you truly did
you'd feel the terror I do
as I watch you
taking the same fucking steps
day after day
you walk the same path

yet you plead of change
smokey swirls rise
i deeply inhale and
and anger fades
just for a moment
along with pain then
teeth sink in hard
for you do nothing

chip, chip, chip, chip
that is the only difference you know
the anger grows
feasting on soul
you freely give
that which is not yours
I only loaned it to you
and now I pay the price

Freedoms tortuously given
that from bloodstained hands
millions gone , thousands more
yet you give away your gift
you "live life to the fullest" though
you know not what that is
smokey swirls rise
I taste disgust
teeth loosed
I shut my blinds.